1. You are driving to office, thinking about how late you already are, how badly the boss will insult you at the right time, what if he gives you a bad grading just because of this, how wonderful the day could be if he is on leave or late just like you, how you are going to manage the time from the next morning so as not to be late in future..and hoping the next lights are not again red !! You are the next prospect Mullah Naseerudin.
2. You are overeating and simultaneously, thinking of stopping to eat as it may lead to overeating. You are sleeping at 7:00 am afer the clock alarmed you at 5:30 am and you thought, exactly at 5:32 am, that its a must to get-up for jog and no point wasting time sleeping excessively. You are speaking and speaking and speaking and simultaneously, yes, thinking of also listening a little. You are counselling a friend to ged rid of his laziness, be aware, telling him that when nothing works, silence does, telling him about the advantages of the seva, saadhna and satsang. And you act a copy of your friend, otherwise.
3. You are aware of your possibilities at any point of time. And yet, there is more than you think is your 100 percent of that moment. There is some portions of you still divided, diverted. You come to an advanced course having sudden realizations of some of those moments. You can then see that otherwise unseen ting of ego, lethargy, craving, misery and what not even in those moments.
The first point talks about the mind being in the past or future- forget about it uniting with your actions in the present moment. Duality? huh?
The second point, thoughts and actions will unite, I believe, only and only with the regular practice of 3S's, keenly and playfully.
The third point is a good symptom of you being on the path of being in the present moment. Continue.
Anyways, there is another phenominon which happens. You are tired of eating. You are bored of watching. You are tired of speaking. You are tired of craving, yet you crave. You don't want any desires coming up, yet you are full of them. You are tired of this mind, yet it doesn't stops.
From the maya of duality how do I pluck the cleaveless truth of unity :o
Can't I be me?
Just and all? Only.
Ps: Thanks to the wonderful Advanced course we had at Solan this Independance Day.
PSA: Two words have been copy pasted as it is from "Rendezvous with Rashmin"
I remember my sankalpa at last year Navratri festival in Ashram, which was to come back for next Navratri. I realized it happen only when I entered the Art of Living International Ashram for Navratri 2009 and was welcomed into the Ashram by Dinesh da himself. He said, "so you have come!!!! Take your accommodation and come back in the evening for Satsang."
Navratri was fresh and fulsome, making me boast of having experienced the larger than life stuff for the first time again. Guru g was so differently mesmerizing and yet with that resembling serenity and smile. It is the best time of the year when you get to spend so much time with him and listen to him through that silence. You understand why religion has its importance. You know that why your mom used to make your visit to the temple so compulsory. Performing rituals is perfect when done with devotion. It is a method to show devotion and also, to increase it.
Meenakshi made a perfect debut in my life. She is one of her type- my companion for Navratri Puja’s this year. She was not a VIP, but yes, self-designated (!) and I had the privilege to enjoy those benefits in her company. "The Secret" very rightly talks about the law of attraction- the kind of thoughts you entertain more, the similar starts happening to you. There was only one thing on her mind- to be as near to Guru g in person which included sitting in the front row and following his car closely. It really did not matter if we entered early or late inside the yagnashala. We were always in the front row. If early, we gave credit it to our commitment, skill and in case late, it was Guru grace and will. And when the later made a hustle bustle around, everyone was made to understand these reasons. As a result, we were partner in the “goal bliss, push rest” crime :D I am one kind of a person who would relish Guru g even from a distance. My mind didn't ever gave me a chance to think of these other possibilities. Thanks to Meenakshi, I got a direct experience. Being in the first row, watching the Puja's so closely was so ecstatic and made it a better happening.
This time, we got accommodation in Chattravas, 2-3 minutes to the Sumeru Mantap, and neighbouring to the Shakti Kutir. And unlike when in Khodays, we could now reach the Yagnshala well before time and leave as late as possible (listening to those late night Guru stories ). Not forgetting to mention the fun in Dormitory where all the 50 ladies added more to the fun and devotion. I must say, aunties are aunties. There is only one type and Ekta Kapoor rightly shows that :D We also tried hands at Dandiya, which is a very different and not so easy dance form. Also, we did some interesting Natya Yoga. It re-kindled the creativity within. I re-realized what I am missing in life. I wanted to be innocent immediately. I wanted to go back, learn classical music, guitar and also do a Sri Sri Yoga TTC. All this excitement and life in me was coz of the teacher, Ganga g's last day performance! Artists are so much more closer to life and living it so clearly with there hearts. Indeed.
The more you know, you come to know that "you do not know"
The more you know that "you do not know", the more you come to know !
PS: I was to club 3-4 posts to 1. But writing about Navratri brought my emotions out. So the rest in next posts. I will try to be emotional in them and make them big :D
PS: To the fans of my blog :D, sorry for delay
Little does one know of the mind’s perplexity and its awful genius, when clubbed with that playfulness ! It is when you’ve just attended the blissful Navratri Puja’s with the maestro himself and followed it up with an advanced course in quick succession; when you look astounded at any worry, pain and suffering that exists; when u have established yourself deeply in the troth that life is love, life is joy, life is enthusiasm. It is when love keeps flowing in the air.
Just until your vision begins to get blurred; just until your mind plays its usual role; just until you begin to be caught in the trap. When Lobh, Moh, Maya and other villains, which had ceased to exist, appear out of nowhere. The mind acts as a magnet to them. They have again started alluring your mind. You becoming aware, put your efforts to love it, to accept it all as it is, managing to understand how opposite values can be complementary, not resisting that it may persist. You read knowledge and it is just a read. Such is the dauntless mind that it so effortlessly makes you land in doubt. It retaliates like anything when you want to rest it down. It wants to prove its being. ‘Letting go’ is not a statement it understands in one go. It needs an egoistic satiation of being the giver of all pleasures, of being the penultimate. It boosts you to be a football of all those rogued opinions. The bunch of calmness that you were surrounded with suddenly seems to be getting lost. Life behaves a parable and you are not ready to move an inch until you solve it. The vicious circle of the mind just awaits to catch you in its ambush. Conclusions don’t come to you easy. You are confused about your aberrant ways. You do what you term as wrong; you speak what you term as ill; you lay back when it’s the time to act. What’s happening?
Everything was changing, the non-changing me could suddenly start noticing. And this too was supposed to change. ‘Impermanence was the only permanent’ was now an experience.
And when you take a glance back, you realize you have grown up! The Guru had arrived.
Jee apna bhola bhala hai…Ye ishq bada matwala hai…
Kya kahein ab aur aagey...Ab kaun samajhane waala hai !
Jai Gurudev
Bhanu
The Ashtavakra Gita is a great Indian Scripture and referred to as the highest knowledge by Guru g. Fortunate enough my journey has been in the Art of Living that in less than a year of my joining the family, I have been graced with the supreme knowledge. How my life was almost a year back would be a different story altogether. But how a part of this year- the last few days, when I got a chance to hear Ashtavakra, brought a transformation in me, is what I will put in this post.
The whole process of listening to the CDs, spread over some 25 days, was magnanimous..or to better put it..so enlightening. As I heard to each verse, something was dropping in me simultaneously, something whose even existence I had never felt off, which was..I don’t know where in me.. But then, I was getting rid of it. And there was a huge sigh of relief every moment I realized it. There was this memory of the past stupid notions about things and then immediately dropping them, as Guru g’s words were touching me. When there was a desire to be an actor of Guru g’s words, the realization of already being one suddenly boomed up. Further, as the days passed, I still remember, when I wished to hold those moments of knowledge forever, how delicately Guru g would talk about being in the present moment. His words had an instant effect that time. There was no dearth of grace, there never is, and now I could realize.
Every time, the “Aho Niranjan” he spoke, would create a vibration in my heart. I was in love. And what a love! Moreover, what a scope of this love! Yea, it was the dawn of better days. Everything did appeared beautiful, so different since then. Every moment was bright, no mood swings- only one mood! But even special was that I could clearly, more closely relate to Guru g. There was a smaller distance now visible to me between me and the people around me. I was behaving like being a part of people around me those days. I could clearly see, the more I can expand into this love, the more I can merge into everything. So deeply was this love imbibed into the moments of my life that neither the question of the purpose of creation nor the storm of emotions could shake my this state.
Such strongly has the content been expressed and versed by Guru g, I really cannot put the feeling into words, of “how it feels after having this divine bath” ! Not really a good idea to write a post and then put it onto your blog. I mean, yea, I did not do a justice, perhaps.
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Jai Gurudeva,
Lots of Love,
Bhanu
When people are short of words, they become poets... that is just how I think, no need to be serious. But I am, and here are few lines I penned down..
For a day let me be a child
that I can live in the present always..
For a day let me be the tranquil breeze
that I can gift a gentle smile my own way..
For a day let me be the sky so vast
that I can fulfill what all you pray..
For a day let me be the sea shore
that I be the witness to creation's best each day..
For a day let me be the God's wish
that I be one with whatever you say..
For a day let me be the gleaming moonlight
that my radiance can flourish away..
For a day let me be the ocean wave
that I don't resist to find my own way..
For a day let me celebrate life
that I become one with my SELF..
I already had its review done from Ashu - The Cruel Critic! So now, only praises are welcomed and be4 doing so, please remember...its my FIRST poem ever. OK?
Loads of love,
Bhanu